My Book Fix You
That’s right my book is finally here! ‘Fix You’ is up for purchase on this website and will be available on Amazon.com in just a few days! Yipee!
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Somewhere between The Glass Castle and Smashed, is Fix You: a raw and honest account of loss, love, and forgiveness about my poignant, often destructive journey from losing my mother to finding myself.
The memoir recounts my life growing up working class in affluent New Jersey during the 1980s, being ostracized because of it, turning to alcohol and men to escape the pain, while simultaniously hurting from my parents’ breakup and my dysfunctional relationship with my mother.
My Mother’s death starts me on an emotional journey where facing my future means reconciling with my past, as I become self confident and self-reliant, with the help of my best friend and two brothers. I love my mother, I hate my mother, but sometimes I am my mother. Ultimately, Fix You is about coming to terms with this conflict and finding acceptance in the one place you never thought to look – within yourself.
I have an edited 58,000-word manuscript targeted to the same audience as the bestselling memoirs The Glass Castle by Jeannette Walls (2005) and Smashed: The Story of a Drunken Girlhood by Koren Zailckas (2006).
From Fix You:
“I am fixated on her pale face, as she sleeps on the bed across from me, wondering how my mother and I got to this place. It all seems a blur as I think back to what seemed at the time to be irreconcilable differences, during an important year for me, the year I graduated from college, and got a job so I could escape her for good.
But, here I sit, at the foot of the bed watching her die. A tear slips down my
face. I’ve become witness to our tragic act, the last words she wrote to me
still pierce my heart: You’ll be sorry when I’m gone.“
Now I’m consumed by guilt, for the part I played in our drama. I was forever
running away. For I wonder if I’m to blame for her death. The more I try to
place my finger on exactly what happened between us, the more I find myself
digging deeper into our past, looking at each moment, each memory, trying to
figure out where it all began…
Sometimes it is the sharp contrasts in life, the bitter and the sweet; things not working out as planned, relationships falling apart, losing your loved ones—these are the things that shake you and make you appreciate life, see the good in it and
love anew the people around you.
I’ve come to terms with my relationship with my mother. I’ve grieved and finally
found peace. I hope other daughters can learn from my mistakes and I hope that
parents can see the importance in loving their children, supporting them, and
giving them the confidence to go out in the world and find their inspiration. I
see the good in what I got from my mother, in her strength and spontaneity. I
do love her and there is not one day that goes by that I don’t think about her.
I take comfort in the fact that though loved ones may physically leave you,
they are never really far from you.
My ground has stopped moving now and I trust this journey, but most of all I have
learned to love myself and to forgive…”
For inquiries please email: apassanti@hotmail.com
Twitter: Follow@AmyPassantino
Chapter 2 – Near Death Experiences
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Hi Amy,
It’s good to see you and your creativity at work…today’s been a rough day. Last night I was notified by my mother that my great-grandma had died (yes she was old, 97 to be exact but she was tough as nails and not doing badly, i took for granted her mortality). I called into work that I’d be late-had to get myself & my thoughts together…I desperatly wanted to find a picture I had of us all at my sister’s wedding in 2007. The photographer caught 3 generations of LeVine bloodline mid-electric slide I found the page in my album but the photo is missing??? I must have brought it to my grandfather’s funeral last February (he died suddenly of a heart attack at 77) Needless to say I’m feeling sad, I will figure a way to forgive myself for not going out of my way to see them more often.
Your blog about your book has caught my attention and I love your style of writing, especially that you include music to go with it. I used to write down songs in my diary to go with certain events for what I refered to as “MY LIFE, THE MOVIE” I was always thinking what my soundtrack would be. This blog couldn’t have come at better time-In fact I’m currently reading “the glass castle”. I know a couple woman at work that just finished it and would enjoy your story as well. Is the book already published?
Thank you so much Dorene! That’s means so much to be that my writings are helping you in some way. That is all I wish for. I am sorry about the loss of your grandmother. Losing someone is so difficult and yes music does play a vital part of our lives. I am so glad that has resonated with you as well. I am so happy to be able to release my book with music, That was extremely important to me. Thanks for your feedback. Please feel free to reply with any other thoughts or comments. Best wishes to you and your family.